Despair, Hope, and Waiting
First of all I just want to say wow. Thank you. I am overwhelmed by the kindness, love, and encouragement that I was met with when I shared my first post. I don't think I fully explained how terrified I was to click "post". I shared my first post at 9 PM at night hoping everyone was asleep (we are old folks and go to bed early!). I posted it and basically hid under my covers, trying not to puke, and listened to Leslie Knope run on my television as I tried to calm down. Thank you. For all those who sent messages, left kind words, shared your stories and struggles with me, thank you. My heart is overwhelmed and my little love tank is full to the brim. You all are good people. I have been reading through my journals and trying to find a good place to start with a deeper explanation of infertility, and what I noticed was this thread of sorrow, grief, and loss that ran through most of my journal entries. Some are marked with anger and bitterness. Some are truly a deep, p...